Help Me Achieve My Dream ->>>

Let me begin by giving you a little back story.

I honestly have had NO IDEA what my actual goals are for a long time. What do I want to do when I grow up?
I thought to myself my senior year in high school "I like math, I'm going to be a math major in college. Teaching runs in my family, I'll teach math." So I got a math degree, a high school teaching degree, I added on middle school, and then threw in special ed for good measure. I realized how much I loved ASL and made a big leap to getting a masters degree to teach deaf children math.
I studied education, I lived it, I wore it on my skin, and then I taught.
Turns out that perhaps teaching is not for me.  During each of my four internships I was miserable. For six months in the classroom I was worse than miserable. And this was because of something within me, not the people I was surrounded with. So I ran away from teaching. I actually ran away and hid.

 

Two years ago this week I quit my teaching job. The first and only thing I have ever quit, because I grew up in a house where quitting was not an answer (especially with a little brother who always wanted to beat me).

 

Two years has gone by and that inner feeling that deep down inside I am a teacher hasn't left. I go back to babysitting, to educating while I am on a kayak tour, to feeling the need to educate my friends...
I am an educator. 
And then it finally came to me.
My true calling is in becoming a yoga teacher. 

I have been sitting on this feeling for well over a year. It was two years ago that I seriously started practicing yoga and became committed to becoming a better, more grounded, deeper, more appreciative, intuitive, spiritual, giving, and loving individual.
I realized today, while discussing life with my sister Mary, that I finally need to go after my dream. Think of the possibilities! I will be certified in multi-style yoga which means I will be able to teach many different classes of yoga including Vinyasa, or even SUP yoga out on paddle boards on Folly Creek. It includes yoga therapy and yoga dance as well.

Can you imagine...

                                me opening up my very own studio someday that includes classes specifically offered for deaf people? Because you better believe that I am going to learn all of the signs for the different asanas. I am going to learn as much Sanskrit as I can possibly wrap my mind around, and I will be able to pass on the actual names of poses to people to help them better understand yoga someday.

This is my dream. Can you help me achieve it? The tuition for the 9 week program is $3200. Even $5 will help. Each and every person will receive a hand written letter from me.

And if you have a dream, go get it. You only live once.

Take a step back

Let me take a step back for a second.  So I was working my butt off in Charleston all summer, knowing that I was moving to Boston the beginning of November. I packed up my stuff to put into a Uhaul when I moved from my sweet bedroom upstairs to the dining room downstairs for a month so that the new girl could move in early.  The dining room wasn't really so bad. For the most part I had the whole downstairs to myself since everyone spent a lot of time in their rooms upstairs.  I spent a lot of time taking Jackson on walks and sitting on our dock.  I took him to the beach early in the morning so we could watch the sun come up.

This recent Saturday I had a total meltdown.  I had a few smaller ones leading up to it over the course of two weeks, but this was a big one.

My last evenings on the boat.

 I've been so sad and have been having such a hard time letting things from my past go.  I hold them all inside of me and let them weigh me down, so frustrating.  Then I get mad, angry, frustrated, and upset with myself because I am sad, which of course makes things worse.
Starting my journey now on being truly happy. Or finding what it really is that I am looking for.  Make myself happy, and then I can let someone else into my life. For now it is just Jackson and I. I kind of like it. He certainly does.




I want to be brave. I miss my sunrises. I miss the warmth on my skin. I love the way the sky changes colors when the sun moves through it. It sends so many amazing messages about change, continual growth, and not settling for the small things. 

What it's like to have amazing friends

"Hello my friend,
I just wanted to take a minute and tell you that I love you and that you're awesome and these are 5 reasons I think so:

You are one of the most energetic and life-filled people I know. You always liven up a room and it's contagious.

You try really hard to make the people you care about happy because it's important to you

You are always honest even if it doesn't benefit you

You are funny as heck and can make anyone laugh even when they don't want to

You have gone amazing places and have inspired others to look at life with a new perspective. That's priceless.

One day, you will find someone who appreciates those things and more about you, who will notice the smallest things about you that are wonderful that you don't even know about and no one's ever told you before. All the pitfalls in the process are just stepping stones to what you deserve, and IT WILL COME--whether its a job, a boy, a place, or all three--it will come! You're the best and I hope you're doing better my love,"
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